24/10/24: Webmaster Joy

i'm currently drafting this page in the notes app on my phone.....
how fun!!

to be honest, i've been trying to make a website since early 2023.
after discovering html sites through none other than maya arson crimew and her leak of the no-fly list (SOMETIMES life just gets you in situations like these...), it wasn't long until i discovered neocities and how wonderful of a website hosting platform it was...
I had found so many new places to go and see on the web..some I had never dreamed of...and they left me with a feeling in my heart that I never want to forget.

I want to make a website too!

So, I set off on a path to have my own neocities website...and eat it too...
wait, that's not how the metaphor works...
however, this daunting task proved to be more and more of a challenge than I first thought. my smooth brain had barely any understanding of html, and I felt so ashamed making websites off template after template until it was a strange scrapbook of html code....not to mention my silly self not even being able to think of a solid theme for her site!! I guess that came with the freedom of youth, but, come on, marnie!! build the freaking website!

but, in autumn 2024...i did in fact, build the freaking website. i decided to no longer care about what HARDCORE CODERS !! would think, and I started to furnish my virtual home without a care in the world....
finally getting my act together and making this website has honestly given me so much joy - and this post is all about that....
so, let's WRITE THE FREAKING BLOG PAGE!!!

joy 1: freedom of expression

it's not often on social media that I will have one account that talks about ALL my interests, but on the personal web, nobody really cares! talk about whatever ya want!! it's fantastic i used to spend my entire real life trying to secretly signal to people I wanted to be friends with stuff like 'hey, look here, i'm doing the same thing you're doing! look at my shirt!! it's the thing you like!! i think?? i hope you like it!!' because I am a certified yapper and absolutely love talking about my interests with people who share them... but now, I don't need specific people! I can just yell this all out on my webpage and hope that at least someone will have something in common, because, they will!!! it's the internet!!!

joy 2: being nice to people on the internet

I think my 2023 self really thought that it would be best if I had an Actual Proper Website before ever dating to write anything on someone's site/guestbook....like it was some hidden social rule that everyone had to have a website before they could talk on my cool lunch table guestbook!! and i mean...I do have a website...but i don't think it's necessary anymore!! I should stop gate keeping my love for the personal web, and the people who run it!! but uhh...if I yapped too hard on your guestbook...i'm sorry ;-; HAHA nah I dont care you guys are fantastic and you should know that!! RAAH! i gimb my love ♡

joy 3: umm people being nice to me???? i love it anyways joy 4: httml is meditative

there's something inherently restful to me about just coding on this site without a care in the world.... and then there's the whole silly 'DON'T TALK TO ME....I'm coding my website..' thing...hehe, I have a (small) knowledge of html/css and you don't!! when i have any spare time, I now go here and code away....
it's fantastic! i love it!!
in conclusion, i love the personal web!! it's great!! and I hope I continue to experience webmaster joy every day....
most sincerely,
marnie, x